What will my life be like in three years? Drastically different. Right now I am at a fork in the road. The next couple of months are filled with a close of a long chapter and the beginning of what is to come. I wish I could say what that looked like but to be honest, since it’s such a drastic change, one cannot imagine what it would look like. Betrayal, trauma, chaos, and instability have followed me around for so long. Survival started to look more like reality. Reality was bleak as hope escaped and dissipated before my very own eyes. What is peace? What is normalcy? My morning coffee struggled to get me through the day. I run on fumes and the courage of parenthood. I cannot give up when I have those that look to me for guidance and comfort.
Sometimes I wonder why my life is so chaotic. Why if its not one thing its the other… then I stop myself. I recognize that through all my problems, it could be worse. While also giving myself the grace to feel compassion through this very difficult time in my life. May the future look bright and peaceful.
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